You know I sent the boys off to visit with their dad, this doesn't happen often, that he wants to spend time with them. So I began praying for a healing in the boy's hearts, whatever God was going to do, that it would bring some peace to them as far as their father is concerned. Funny how I pray, thinking I know what is best for everyone and how God should handle things.

Little did I know, that He would use this opportunity to heal something in MY heart. I have forgiven my ex over and over, but I have never been able to freely love him again as a person. I thought that would be an impossibility. God is starting to untangle something in me. A way to love my ex, my children, and hopefully others in a brand new way. Letting those in my life be exactly who they are and not having to fix or change them. That's God's business, not mine. It doesn't mean I agree with what they do, but I can love them where they are. Isn't that what Papa does with me, he loves me right here and now. He knows that His work is not done, it's a process He has promised to complete in me.

He has a way of getting at things in my life, things I didn't know needed fixing...or at least wasn't high on MY list of priorities. Jesus knows better what I need and where to start......He's amazing like that, right?